What I Saw

Behind me was darkness

Up ahead, glory

Half my face covered by shadows

The other faintly embraced by light

Behind me was madness

Up ahead, sanity

Three quarters of my heart chained

One small quarter still beating

Behind me was bitterness

Up ahead, a sorrowful gaze
Lies that I am forgotten

Truth that I am not
Behind me was bitterness
Up ahead, an outstretched hand
The demons, they taunted me
The Savior, He beckoned me

When Your Wants and Needs Have Yet to Agree

It’s not that I am not grateful for Your grace and for Your mercy.

It’s just that…for ONCE. for once … I want to get something right. That I don’t need a slap on the hand to remind me that I’m doing wrong.

That I don’t need to find myself with my face in my hands because I did not try hard enough.

But ….

Your ways are higher. Your ways are wiser. Your ways are PERFECT.

May I never forget who I was. May I always remember that I am who I am because of Your grace. Because of Your mercy.

May I never live for one second thinking that I can do this on my own.

Where there is love
There is no room for fear
Where there is hope
Every doubt disappears
Where there is faith
Mountains ar cast away
Where there is love
All things are beautiful

I want to know the heights
I want to know the depths
I want to know the widths
And the lengths of Your love.

It’s been a long time since I last listend to Unhindered, which was at my last Acquire the Fire conference in 2009 (?). And it’s good to find them still producing such wonderful, good for the soul music :)

I descended into cyberspace.

I was working on a take-home midterm last night when I passed out and didn’t save my work. My computer shut off by itself.

but even at this point I’m not worried at all because I know that Microsoft office does this nice thing of restoring files that weren’t saved the next time you open up Word. 

which is what I did. But for some reason, I thought I had my document saved. I accidentally typed into my document and began to exit out to reopen it (i have no idea what I was doing and why I was doing such deed) but when it asked me if I wanted to save it, I was like “uh. no. cuz it has a mistake in it hehe” 

and. I. clicked. no.

and it still didn’t register in my brain what had just happened and I tried reopening the document and I realized:

OMG ANNABEL YOU JUST DELETED YOUR MIDTERM THAT YOU DIDN’T EVEN SAVE LAST NIGHT …. 

but I am SO thankful that there are ways to recover lost documents in the abyss of the recycle bin and digging through folders that I never thought existed. and so thankful for Google (and all other search engines) and for all the techies who make tutorials for lost souls like me and for yahoo answers to make me feel better about my stupidity lol.

as of now, my midterm has been saved as “midterm,” safe and sound.

God is too good T^T yea, I think it’s easier to be thankful for big things, but man…it’s the little moments of grace where you just duck your head down in bashfulness and awe and say

"sigh … God, you even cared about that little, trivial thing? You’re too good. Too good. Thank You…"